may I?

i've been "under the weather" all week, and, as is my usual indecisive self, not only can't figure out if it's genuine sickness (headache, bodyaches, sniffles - but all sorta off and on and not as bad as my usual summer colds) or is it in my head - all the same stuff still bothering me (ex-boy, boys, noboys, job, blah blah) and can't even decide about going to work today. feel like crap, but there's just a handful of important stuff that can't wait... yuck. I try to look on the bright side, but too often this week it's all "i hate my life" but as soon as that comes out, it feels too extreme, but i can't even say what i'd like my life to be like - just not what it is today. just all-around yuckiness. blah.