"Before Chris Pull is picked up by Jay Fox on a rainy, New York street, he's an ordinary, cheap hustler who lives by his wits like an alley cat. Luckily for him, he's endowed with blond, country-fresh looks, a strong muscular body, and an unforgettable ten inches. He's a drifter with no place to go... and he thinks he's straight." - Junior Dixon - GOLDENROD 1974 MANhard Books.

Just got a crapload of new paperbacks - so busy busy busy scanning, researching, and preparing. Good news is not all of them are X-rated, so you're free to take a peak at them on eBay.

• The Why Not - classic 60's from Victor J. Banis & GREENLEAF
• Tops, Bottoms, & Sidepockets - "the unflattering term applies to those homosexuals who willingly use every sexual possibility of their bodies to achieve sensual bliss..."
• The Flaming Heart relisted, ending today, Friday.
• AC-DC Lover more from Victor J. Banis (here as VICTOR JAY) - you must check out the "GGA"cover art!
• Gay Treason - yet another pseudonym of Victor J. Banis - J.X. Williams; gay life in occupied Paris in the 40's
• All Shades of Gay - "Jerry Burton's feeling of love for a friend came through on canvas despite - or because of - his imprisonment on a false charge. Gay colors may come from the heart, as well as the palette" - um, ok.....

And of course, the full list of what i currently have to offer (auction-wise, you smart-asses!) is always here, on my eBay page

oh, canada

I'd be lying if I didn't admit that the eyebrows are what first grabbed my attention. But, when you go to FOREST WIND SPINE, may I respectfully suggest you go to the audio page first, as the music is great (Light Hole is a current favorite). Then, the videos - playful and well, OK, bits of eyebrows if you pay attention - then, the gallery to see the artist himself.

handful of STROKES

filthy filthy magazines. I was never much of a fan, but would occasionally pick up a used one (along wiht some HONCHOS, MANDATES, etc.) late at night coming home from The Bar as I would stroll up 2nd Avenue. One night I remember being shocked while looking in the amatuer poloroid section, seeing one of my boyfriend's neighbors. He had the standard black strips across his face, but as he was the only guy I had ever seen (so far) with those huge snake bite kit (I would learn the methodology years later) nipples, ANDRE was easy to recognize even with his shirt on. Sweet man, alwasy a hello, but you just couldn't help talking to his tits instead of his face.

Needless to say, the links are to the eBay auctions.

Gay Republican set to become House Majority Leader

update: - oops!

ROGER & PEE

HOT HOUSE

"Excuse me; where the hell's the toilet?"

director: Jack Deveau (1977)

Starring: Roger and Jack Wrangler; with Jayson MacBride, Garry Hunt, David Hunter, Eric Streiff, Joe Dellasandro (uncredited), and in a non-sexual role Tray Christopher (Chris Rage's voice as M.J. Stunning, a radio D.J.).

HOT HOUSE is the notorious film from director Jack Deveau - notorious because it incorporated a sequence "starring someone you're sure to recognize - his tattoo reads 'Little Joe'!" - courtesy of someone named Norman Fisher. But more importantly - to me anyway - this was ROGER's first film (he did work for TARGET under the name Tom Garrett around the same time, but I honestly don't know which came first - suffice it to say that at the least, this was ROGER's first "talkie"). Briefly, Jack Wrangler (my fave porno actor, of course) picks up this stud (ROGER) at the health club, but when he gets home, ROGER needs to pee and runs off to the bathroom. Lucky GARRY HUNT (who, as usual, is fanfuckintastic) just happens to be in the shower, and in the interests of water conservation, suggests to ROGER: "why don't you just give me some of that?" Alas, the scene is cut from most video releases past the mid 1980's, and you'd have to be some sort of GAY PORNO-CRAZED guy to have a copy! Two more interesting bits (you're already watching it and stopped reading awhile ago, right?) is the disco music - which I can't name (PLEASE HELP!) - and the narrator/DJ - it's Christopher Rage billed as M.J. Stunning (you might remember his performance in the 1974 film, DRIVE, as the drag queen Arachne, billed at the time as Mary Jim Sstunning).

for panchesco

Not many guys can get away with wearing a pink blouse, but Mr. BYRON HAWKWOOD does just fine, don't he? You should see him in his little tight black sheer undies - hubba hubba. Yeah yeah, here's the link for my eBay auction for COLT OLYMPUS 8: OLYMPIANS #1, the magazine which contains him and other models, like Karl Mann, Mike Betts (who you remember from Muscle Beach), and Nick Chase. Oh, in case you didn't notice, clicking the picture above takes you to a supplemental page of pics from the magazine. Save know before I take the page down next week, boys.

our way to fall

"I remember a summer's day
I remember walking up to you
I remember my face turned red
I remember staring at my feet"

gosh, even last night listening to this Yo La Tengo tune, I thought it was a song about Autumn approaching! Apparently, I wasn't paying much attention to the lyrics of Our Way To Fall, which is clearly about something else.

update/note: - yes, I know, the song sounds odd, distorted - NOT the way it's supposed to - will work on re-ripping it later... I no longer love my MEDIA CENTER 2005

Rick Raven

SNAP!

STROKE

Gosh, I love these "erotic drawings" generously scattered through each issue of STROKE magazine. This one's from BILL WARD; other artists include Tom of Finland (of course), HARRY BUSH, Blade, Ace Moorcock, Draw Boy, Antonio, and others. I have a couple to sell - but this vintage issue seems to be RETAILING for a lot more than I could ever get at auction!

Help a transsexual pay for her sex change

can i get a witness?

"I am here to tell you that the married men (happy or otherwise) who are having sex at rest stops, public parks or gym shower rooms are giving as much oral sex as they are getting, and they are doing it because they like it." (emphasis added)

A buddy of mine reacts to yesterday's New York Times "article" - A Sex Stop on the Way Home - in his The Times cruises a parking lot.

vintage butts, etc.

I think I posted these guys (the handsome stars of the 1980 COLT Classic: Muscle Beach, Mike Betts and Rick Wolfmier) a week or so ago, promising more. Here we go - I have several "vintage" (70's, early 80's) porno magazines up for auction with some fantastic photographs. Many of you may not know this, but eBay limits not only the types of pictures, but also the number of "adult" images in the "Mature Audiences" sections. But rather than explain the ins and outs of that, suffice it to say that I sometimes provide a link within the auction to additional images. Figured I'd share here for those of you who don't regularly check out the auctions, or who can't.

• from photographer Michael West - GUISE - 1970's - ROGER - eBay auction page plus the supplemental page
• from Mel Roberts , SEX FANTASY - 1978 - eBay auction page plus additional pic here and here
• from the 1977 FALCON FILE, premier issue: eBay auction page plus the supplemental page
  
• and as promised, the OOP (out of print) COLT OLYMPUS 5, from 1980 - eBay auction page plus the supplemental page

ohhhhhhhhh, Mister Grant!

Probably best known for his work with COLT Studios (in such films as Hammerhead, House Boat and Flatbed; and FALCON (in such films as Working Late, Young Conquest and the fantastic The Crotch Watcher) he was in only one film where he spoke! The fanfuckintastic 1978 release from director Lancer Brooks, (AKA Tom DeSimone), HOT TRUCKIN' - you know, where "Gordon Grant stars as a horny truck driver who encounters some wild sex on the road while delivering his load."

Yes, yes, selling TWO magazines with Mister Grant featured prominently -

• The above pic is taken from IN TOUCH 45 - where Grant graces an 8 page, 9 photograph spread, (including the centerfold), plus the cover, and an additional handsome smiling one on the Editorial page - from photographer D J GARRET.
• and in a 1977 publication, FALCON FILE - 6 pages, 14 great photos in this premier issue from the "FALCON FILE" magazine series.

some books

Two aren't porno, they are written by Joseph Hansen books from his Dave Brandstetter Mystery series - kinda cool, beginning with the 1970 Fadeout, with an openly gay detective. The others are, of course, porno, but a bit different from my usual 70's and 80's offerings.

• THE SCARLET PANSY is a reprint of a 1933 novel detailing post WWI gay life!
• Imre is a reprint of a "privately published" novel from 1906, where a British aristocrat pursues, and woo-ha, gets, the Hungarian soldier of his dreams.
• CHRONICLE OF A SEAMAN LOST - our friends over at Pendulum Books printed this is 1968 - "Tale of the Bizarre Practices of the Korean Court in 1836; From a manuscript Found in an Ancient Oriental Fishing Float"
• SODOM: the Quintessence of Debauchery - written by John Wilmot, Earl of Rochester, in - egad - 1684!! Apparently the guy thought the Puritans were, well, just too much, so he wrote what is described as: "The most obscene play ever written. Wilmot, Earl of Rochester, a member of the court of Charles II of the England, had a rep as the most outre sexual deviant of his day. The drama gives us Sodom's king, Bolloxinion, his wife Cuntigratia, , generals, ministers and servants engaging in an impossibly wide series of activities" - Cuntigratia???? Where's my Latin-to-English dictionary when I need it?

Oh yeah, you can see all the stuff I'm selling on my eBay page.

ROGER

gosh, I'd never seen this picture of ROGER - AKA Tom Garrett - who you may remember from such films as Target/Bullet's Good Neighbors, Garden Party and Deck Hands; Falcon's Bigger Than Life and The House Painter; and Hand In Hand's Sex Magic, A Night At The Adonis, and Hot House ; and of course, the wonderful 3-D film, Heavy Equipment. Anyway, I got a stack of magazines that I am slowly sorting for auction, and in one called GUISE I saw this from photographer Michael West. I recognize one of the photograph's from a 1970's magazine advertisement for Falcon, but otherwise had not seen this series. This and 2 others show Roger's beautiful smile! Yum!

9/19/05 update: I've listed the magazine on eBay.

takin' it on the chin

FEVER PITCH

director: OK Boys; produced by DIRK YATES (1988)

Starring: Steve Ross; with Matt Erickson, Steve Carson; featuring Doug Grant, Matt Johnson, Bill Michaels, Jared Scott, and Tony Chase as Sal.

One of those late 80's videos where they sometimes use condoms, but sometimes don't, like in the last scene, shown here. Of course, eBaying this one. WOW! I hadn't watched it with the sound on until just now - and it's just this great drumming with no fakey sexsound overdubbing or bad dialogue! nice.

grumpy man

A couple weeks back, WIGSTOCK Saturday, in fact, anxiously waiting to be able to flee the workplace and walk up the couple of blocks to Wigstock when a voice says something like "That's a great picture." I turn to see someone waiting for the bathroom, who continues on: "That guy on the website, with the beard, it's so cool, such a great picture." Needless to say, it took me a few seconds to focus and realize he was talking about MY website, this page; geez, I posted it in the A.M. so who the heck remembers what he's done before noon..... and I sorta grumbled something fascinating like "yeah, sure, thanks." After coming back out of the bathroom, I think he said something else, but of course, in my own little world, he had already walked away by the time I realized what he'd said. So, my apologies for being a rude f*ck, ya just caught me a tad off guard. Above is an additional pic - the magazine it's from is being auctioned off (off course)- and here is the full centerfold of that same bearded model, RAFAEL

working, working, working

Gosh, I hate to give up this COLT magazine; other than the cover, it's conditon is really good, and it's OUT OF PRINT. And with the usual obsessiveness I give only to my porno, I did some research and found that the $250.00 COLT "archived" out-of-print issue offered on their site (pic on right) has a different cover than mine (pic on left)! Mmmmmmmmmmm, I DO plan on giving you boys some more pics from this mag, and the handsome stars of the 1980 COLT Classic: Muscle Beach. Meanwhile, I guess this is what my listings look like to foreigners, and others who can't/don't "sign in" to eBay.

Hidden - Requires adult verification - $0.99 21h 11m
Hidden - Requires adult verification 16 $25.90 21h 13m
TRAFFIC IN INNOCENTS Shocking Story of White Slavery $0.50 21h 28m
AGE OF THE WIFE SWAPPERS 1966 vintage sleaze - $0.30 21h 28m
Hidden - Requires adult verification 3 $1.75 21h 40m
JAMES PURDY Eustace Chisholm & Works 1968 GAY CLASSIC $3.00 21h 40m
HOMO SWEET HOMO 1968 gay humor FUNNY FAIRY TALES $0.97 22h 34m
Hidden - Requires adult verification - $0.99 22h 35m
Hidden - Requires adult verification 1 $0.99 22h 36m
Hidden - Requires adult verification 1 $0.99 22h 45m
Hidden - Requires adult verification - $0.99 22h 45m
Hidden - Requires adult verification 6 $7.50 1d 01h 07m
Hidden - Requires adult verification - $0.99 1d 01h 09m

doubts

thanks to the folks who wrote regarding my Monday post about having doubts. I spent all of Monday night at work depressed, contemplative, moody, and yeah, a little sad. But I think I've said this before - while all of that is uncomfortable, to say the least, it doesn't bother me so much THAT all that was going on. It matters more to me if the process of feeling that way helps me flesh out what is bothering me, and what can I do about it. AS one emailer pointed out (and thanks, if I didn't say so explicitly when I wrote you back) - it is not for me to decide if I am right for him, that would be his decision. I can only decide if he is right for me. Yes, of course. It just saddened me to contemplate that he could be concluding that, and those feelings happen when you have disagreements, etc. I do think that each of us, the BF and I, are actually both surprised at just how much we dig the other guy, and are both having trouble believing the other could possibly feel as strongly. So maybe I was indeed having the martyr complex (I love you SOOOOO much more than you love me, damn it!)

All the while I was at work Monday night, I thought of coming home and taking down Monday's post - too revealing, and more so, too revealing of another person. Some may laugh at that - how many times have I described intimate sexual stuff here? But emotions are just so much more important, and the sex stuff was invariably about some unnamed "trick" or date. Here I was revealing something about someone I care a great deal about, and wondered if I should be doing that. When I got home, I re-read what I wrote, and it seemed generic enough. I don't think I revealed anything, really, about him; and about me, well..... there ya go....

In other news: Yes, yes, I will post more pics linking to porno auctions soon, but meanwhile, there is stuff I just don't think I can sell, but am desperate to get out of my apartment. So, below is a list of books I just can't throw away. Anyone in the United States (sorry, international shipping is costly) who wants one or more of them just has to figure out the email link above, and tell me what you'd like. Go ahead and be so bold as to give me a shipping address, as I am going to the post office often enough that if you are the first to ask for it, and I can get it out of my apartment fast, it's easier and better for me.

• With Malice Toward Women - Justin Kaplan
• Hidden From History: Gay and Lesbian Past - Martin Duberman, et. al.
• Life With Women & How To Survive It - Peck
• Iron John - Robert Bly
• An Arrow's Flight - Mark Merlis
• Human Secual Response - Masters & Johnson
• Soul Beneath the Skin - David Nimmons

please, sir; may I have your baby?

I didn't expect fireworks, I didn't expect shocking revelations, I didn't expect blunders. I did expect useless argumentativeness from democrats, and ass-kissing and softballing from republicans in today's Senate Confirmation hearings on Supreme Court nominee Judge Roberts. I am slightly surprised that the far right doesn't get that this guy will likely be a Sandra Day O'Connor. And I was on the floor laughing listening to Alabama Senator Sessions go on and on about how wonderful Roberts is, never actually asking a question, and become the Webster's Dictionary definition on ass-kissing. I wouldn't have blinked an eye if the man said No need for a condom, sir, I'd be honored to have your baby."

raising more than money!

It's a Craiglist ad, so chances are it won't stay up long - but I do think this ad for AIDS Walk Los Angeles, Serve The Monster, gets a B+ for creativity!

sometimes the pictures don't match the mood

click it, eBay auction, buy it, blah blah blah.

It's a monday morning and i am overwhelmed with doubts. I know doubts come with relationships, all of them - whether "mere" friendships, or the kind that involve sex, and shared secrets, and hopes for a life together. I know this, I have experienced it, and yet, now, right now, for the moment anyway, I doubt I am right for him. This is no time for "hey guy, you're cool, you're a great guy" etc. I am not writing this to get that reaction. I think I am writing this to flesh these jumbled up thoughts for myself, and the structure of making it semi-coherant here in 'public' might help. Friends can't answer the question of whether I am a nice guy, am i a smart-ass, am I too biting and sarcastic and downright rude sometimes. They don't have so much invested, they don't experience the worries and doubts that, well, lovers do. Perhaps ex-boyfriends can help me understand what it is about me that gives mixed signals - "i love you" vs. "leave me alone I'm not even awake yet" - OK, those are poor examples. But apparently somethings i do or say, or the manner in which i say or do them, are rude and hurtful. And it is vague, and I don't quite see it, and that there is the problem. It is not OK for me to conclude that it is his problem. That is never the right answer, no matter what the relationship is - if indeed you want it to continue and in fact get even better. But I am genuinely perplexed, and saddened by this dilemna. I want to fix it, yet i don't, honestly, know what I am doing wrong, and so can't begin to be better. I am overwhelmed and frankly, a bit frozen - worried about making more, and bigger mistakes. Doubting even the little nicenesses that I want to do on a whim because they may seem contrived, or calculated. This is not what he has said, but more my anxiety getting the better of me and just doubting everything for now (I hope it is just for now).

SPERM BLACKOUT PARTY !!

Usually there is some sort of "event" like a 3-day weekend, or GAY PRIDE/GAY SHAME, Wigstock/ Pigstock, etc., but this BLACKOUT PARTY at SPERM is tonight. But, um, with all the lights out, how am I supposed to keep track of my boyfrie...
oh.

DYNASTUD

director: Scott Hansen (1986)

Starring: Chris Burns, Christopher Lance, Daniel Holt, Rick Donovan, Joel Curry, Julian Adams, Mark Miller, Melchor Diaz, J.D. Slater, Jeff Bentley, Butch Berger

Remember Aaron Spelling's popular ode to shoulder pads and conspicuous consumption, Dynasty? Well, Dynastud is the gay porno spoof version. Christopher Lance plays poor little rich boy Steven Harrington (his family is rich and powerful due to the success of their company, DRILLCO) who gets to have lots of sex with practically anyone he wants, and begins the movie by getting it on with the stable boy, Melchor (who looks great; but, alas, he's in that jockstrap all too briefly!). Highlights include the painfully slow portrayal of Mrs. Harrington (yeah, caviar, we get it, you're rich), and of course the 3-way in the jet featuring the pilot, Rick "Humongous" Donovan, Mark "please don't make me act" Miller, and Joel "ever do it at 50,000 feet" Curry. (and yes, there are TWO sequels!)

when writers write about other writers

I love comparing book covers for the same title - personally, I like the one on the left; but I can see why the half-naked man was put on the cover a year later, on the right, for the paperback version. (sex sells, moths don't)

I have sold this book before, and am again. But I wanted to update the listing with some additional info, so I did some googling, and find Gore Vidal's 2005 New York Times piece: James Purdy: The Novelist as Outlaw. Gosh, I should know better. I mean, I realize I am a bit of a dolt, but I just want to hear:

"It's a great book - read it, it will change/ruin/improve/destroy your life/outlook/relationship"

and I know better than to see what one writer has to say about another, as they annoyingly/humorously/annoyingly tell you more about themselves than their subject. After the first 85 paragraphs, and splashing myself in the face several times with more hot coffee, I finally learned that Vidal liked Purdy, and the book. But, other than the fact that it pissed off people Vidal didn't/doesn't like, I couldn't tell you why he liked it. Probably why I've never finished a Gore Vidal novel - i always seemed to fog over and wonder why I am being told the history of Thomas Jefferson's silverware for 13 pages when I am reading a book on Lincoln.

lazy

Between my 30-hour a week restaurant job, my full-time procrastinating, and a BF who, oddly enough, really likes being with me despite my irritability, grumpiness, and laziness - I must say I just don't seem to have much time for porno! And I know myself too well to make promises; all you can hope for is that as I gear up for some eBaying, I'll share the occasional pic or, egad! - didn't I used to post videoclips???

excellent shape with no rotting

No snarky comments about the place, the neighborhood, the generic gayboys who used to go there, etc (I am, afterall, dating someone who lives about a block from where this sign used to hang) - but the BIG CUP sign on eBay auction is raising money for American Red Cross Hurricane Katrina relief efforts, so, um, well, there ya go. (OK, OK, just one comment - what does one DO with such a sign? seriously, I'm curious)

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cowboys?

No idea why this is in my "cowboys" folder, but still, I like the picture. I would totally love to have that
bedspread - wouldn't you?