GOT AN URGE GOT A SURGE
AND IT'S OUT OF CONTROL
GOT AN URGE I WANNA PURGE
'CAUSE I'M LOSING CONTROL
UNCONTROLLABLE URGE
I WANNA TELL YOU ALL ABOUT IT

I was just thinking, "make it an early night", but somehow, the appeal of ONE MORE BEER got the better of me, and as soon as the bartender pulled that Rolling Rock out of the pile of ice, and began to unscrew the cap, uncontrollable urge blasted out of the speakers. ( yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah.....)

previously the music was hit or miss (like WAYYYY MISS with one of Heart's more dreadful hits) and a decent pretenders, a cool Jam tune. Soon enough, something that brought me back to my college dorm room, when I was rooming with Gerard, who had that kick-ass stereo ( and that cock he'd occasionally let me suck/jerk-off) played. That first time: Andrew walked in (we rarely locked the door) and just walked over to the turn table, pulled off the record that was playing (no doubt Gene Vincent, or someone like that who Gerard was trying to teach me all about...) and said, I'M GONNA BLAST THIS ---- and those first few notes from Remain In Light started bouncing off those dorm room walls. A-FUCKIN-MAZING! There's nothing like being 19 years old, and hearing, for the first time, an album that just bowls you over. Of course, last night, they didn't do what really should be done - play the whole first side, ( Born Under Punches, Crosseyed and Painless, The Great Curve) only Crosseyed got played ........I'm still waiting.......I'm still waiting......

but I must say, with all those memories flooding in, the kicker of the night, and the Cock was just starting to fill up (3 am, where ARE they coming from?) .... this seemed to get all the cute boys dancing, and the rest of us bouncing in our places....

Walking On Thin Ice
i'm paying the price
for throwing the dice in the air
why must we learn it the hard way
and play the game of life with your heart

so yeah, I had to take a few tokes, fresh stuff, just picked it up in midtown earlier in the day....

"you are going to live for-EVER!"

"I can't believe you are here. I was just thinking of you! Quick, give me some numbers, give me three numbers! NOW!!"

I gave her 3 numbers, all of which had something to do with my birthday/year/age. She quickly ran off to get a ticket. I hired this woman 3 or 4 years ago, and here she is, on her way to work, a job I quit over a year ago. Standing on this corner in midtown, waiting for a friend I had to meet here (I never go to midtown, but, um, well, i had to pick something up from him). I saw several people from my last job, only 2 recognized/noticed me back. Soon enough, Susan came back, lotto ticket in hand, rushing past me so as not to be late for work, shouting "We're Gonna WIN!!!!!!"

I knew a girl
who tried to walk across the lake......