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Thursday, August 21, 2008
may I?

i've been "under the weather" all week, and, as is my usual indecisive self, not only can't figure out if it's genuine sickness (headache, bodyaches, sniffles - but all sorta off and on and not as bad as my usual summer colds) or is it in my head - all the same stuff still bothering me (ex-boy, boys, noboys, job, blah blah) and can't even decide about going to work today. feel like crap, but there's just a handful of important stuff that can't wait... yuck. I try to look on the bright side, but too often this week it's all "i hate my life" but as soon as that comes out, it feels too extreme, but i can't even say what i'd like my life to be like - just not what it is today. just all-around yuckiness. blah.