i shouldn't be awake yet, but the sound of
the waves a helicopter woke me. got in late last night, and of course not ready to be back. already yelled at roommate, and several co-workers (none were aware of the yelling, but one of them doesn't clean up after himself, and the others, well, they are hopeless) but anyway, lying in bed, the sound of the helicopter, i decided to get up anyway, since 6:30am has been my usual time to wake up while on vacation. i'm trying to be upset, or sad, and no doubt i will be both in a matter of hours at the office, but right now, the rising sun is hitting me, and i realize it is at the exact same angle it did each morning for a week from the little deck of the place i was staying - same sun, same me...... now if only i could replicate the sounds of the waves that coaxed me to sleep each night, or that woke me in the middle of the night, begging me to come out on the deck and look at the bazillion stars not only above, but somehow just straight ahead over the bay. more pictures, some videos later no doubt; think i'll keep weather.com at 02657 for awhile longer on the blackberry
last september 5 years ago was the first time, 4 days alone. 3 years ago, with partner for just a couple days; and last year (seen here) with a buddy, 6 days. Well, in 6 days exactly from typing this, i will be on a ferry, beginning 9 days of VACATION alone - (don't worry, i've called ahead and warned the locals).
the idea is, i am supposed to try to get out of my rut; you know - doing the same thing over and over again (bars, webcam, "dating" websites) and expecting a different result.... blah blah blah - so, after work yesterday, instead of riding directly home, or riding to the grocery store, then home, to sit in front of this machine and/or the tube, i decided to pedal directly west (no, not to the Eagle, keep going) to the west side highway, and just over, to the river. lots of nice benches, joggers, bicyclists, and the river, filled with sailboats, some kayaking type people, and the sun lowering in the sky. parked my ass on a bench, pulled out a book, and let myself slow down, relax, enjoy the warm feeling of the sun on my face, the cool breeze tickling under my armpits, and the what the! annoying sound of the heliport a few feet away..... but soon, that annoying sound dissipated, and i just enjoyed a nice rest before taking the slightly longer route home.