Thursday, July 31, 2003

Have I mentioned I've been reading books lately? Last night I finished reading Michael Bronski's "Culture Clash: The Making of Gay Sensibility" - what a great book! I was concerned that being 20 years old, it could be outdated, outmoded, or just plain uninteresting. But I can't tell you how many times in the past few days I've been nodding "uh huh, yup!" while racing through this book. The "blurb" on the back cover gives you a general idea of what it's about - "Culture Clash explores the dynamics of gay liberation and homophobia, of change and backlash, and reveals the radicalism of the challenge that gay men and lesbians, as cultural adventurers, have offered to American society." - but for someone like myself, who hasn't really explored the history of gay/queer art, let alone given a lot of thought to its importance, it's a great read. (And it's also reminded me I need to find that Oscar Wilde paperback I bought a few weeks back)

I've certainly seen his name around for years, linked to his excellent article on the Mathew Limon case - The Other Matthew, even sent some friends his fascinating article regarding the Harry Potter phenomenon - What Is It About Harry? - that explores the evangelical right's problems with the series, as well as the appeal of the books to both children and adults.

Anyhoo.... while excerpts can't really give you a feel for a book, I did find this passage near the end of Culture Clash to be very thought-provoking:

"Perhaps the cheapest charge leveled against gay liberation and the gay community in general is that of decadence. The decadence charge is usually leveled by people who refuse to see the issue of sexuality as important. (Sex is a private, bedroom activity, and nothing to shout about in the streets.) It is also proferred by those who think gay people, especially gay men, are irresponsible and immature, since mature sexuality requires procreation and support of the economic structures of heterosexual family life.
The root of this stereotype is located in the fact that our culture is extremely production-oriented. Effort (usually called work) must produce results. Art does not exist in and of itself, but to produce some (usually moral) effect. Sex does not exist for pleasure, but to produce children. The production model affects all aspects of our lives. Its source can be found in religiion, capitalism, family structure, and established gender roles. Because gay men have aspired to material comfort and emotional acceptance and have used upward mobility as a strategy for escaping oppression, they have becaome associated with the upper class in people's minds. Gay men are seen as idle, uproductive dabblers. This stereotype is further complicated by the fact that in the past 20 years the commercialization of the 'gay lifestyle' has projected this very image. The popular stereotype of the urban gay man and the 'Advocate lifestyle' are identical. The difference is that the stereotype supposedly applies to all gay people, but the truth is that only a small percentage of gay men actually conform to it."

See, this all speaks to my own little worldview - the odd way that I interpret Marxism: the need for capitalism to succeed in making the means of production effecient enough so that each person only has to work a small portion of his day, freeing him to pursue his real interests in his "leisure time." (How funny that 'leisure' sounds so much more acceptable/respectable than 'pleasure'.) And, of course, the individual must be free to decide what that is - reading, fucking, whale-watching; perhaps, if lucky enough, all of that. I have another book of his books, Pulp Friction, in my small stack of "to-read" books. But having finished this one, I am most anxious to acquire a copy of his more recent The Pleasure Principle - a book I remember vaguely when it came out, but dismissed. I misunderstood what the book would be about; I had ASSumed it would be denigrating the idea of pleasure, not articulating an argument for its pursuit. (Well, it's much more than that, as I hope to find out). I have to keep my eye open for more stuff from this writer.

Wednesday, July 30, 2003

those krazy katholics!
Vatican Denounces Gay Marriage - um, wouldn't it like solve a bazillion of their problems if they just let the priests marry the alter boys?



oh jeez! I almost forgot to mention these Super 8mm 70's/80's gay porno films on eBay. I've bought from this guy, and have always been happy. He was even nice enough to remind me that I've bought these patricular titles from him already, so that I don't make a mistake and get dupes. Check 'em out.

Tuesday, July 29, 2003


Summer Sun

another day, come and gone
don't think i can ever sing that song
little secrets we bring along
i'm taking my time, trailing behind, i thought of you
today is the day i think of you

I bought this album for a pal a few weeks back, mostly because I needed a small gift in a hurry, and he had taken me to see this band last year, and we both enjoyed it. On my way to taking him out to his birthday dinner, I liked the album cover and title - "Summer Sun", so I bought it and wrapped it up. About a week or two later, he emails me that he's been listening to it, and it's quite good. Of course, I have to download a few songs to see if I agree. After the third song, I stopped. Yes, very good. Too good to go track by track. Good enough to buy, and enjoy as an entire album; not just a few tracks with the little blips and beeps that come from file-"sharing". I've been listening to it nearly every day since then, sometimes a few times a day. Just beautiful. I know I'm very late on the YO LA TENGO bandwagon, and perhaps these last two mellower albums have made them a bit passe', I don't know (or care). And then there was the dilemna of blogging about it and picking one song to post - not really possible, as each song screamed out "pick me! I'm a great song!" But I would say, if you like the tune I picked, you'll love the entire album.

Monday, July 28, 2003

Sabiazoth [3:20 PM]: You look hot. I love men like you. You're so rauncy. :)
Bjland [3:20 PM]: huh?
Bjland [3:20 PM]: rauncy?
Sabiazoth [3:20 PM]: I meant 'Raunchy.'

Ya know, I was hoping the recently buzzed head and longish beard might give me the Daddy look. I mean, 40-something and bald, the options are a bit limited. (And it did seem to work Friday night with the 26-year-old cockguzzler at this sexclub) But it makes me look raunchy? I don't think I'm ready for that.

I have taken great care not to get "excited" while taking the pic, so I hope my Ebay swimsuit auction is bland enough to pass official muster.

Sunday, July 27, 2003

I gotta say, the murder of Councilman James Davis by Othniel Askew has grabbed my attention much more than most local stories. At first it was the sadness over a violent death of someone who was known to fight against violence. Then the odd circumstances: his killer being a gay man who claimed only earlier that day to the FBI that the councilman had 1) offered him money to stay out of the city council race and 2) threatened to "out" him. And then the mysterious documents in Askew's possession - one letter looking like it was from Davis thanking Askew for his sacrifice in not running (unsigned, so why in Askew's possesion?); the other, a type of contract saying Askew will be Davis's fundraiser and aide. Hmmmmm.

What troubles me isn't the odd idea from Askew that he would be blackmailed - it simply doesn't make sense that Davis would feel threatened by an unknown running against him - but the idea that Askew could be "outed" - there is no indication that he was in fact "in" (the closet, that is) so its seems like a nonsensical threat. Meanwhile, the newspapers seem to be dancing around wondering what their real relationship was - very veiled things like Davis was 41 and single (one paper notes he is handsome), Davis was 31 and single and handsome; they've had private meetings in Davis's office, as well as at least one meeting in Fort Greene Park. Um, how do I say this delicately? Fort Greene Park, at night anyway, is a known cruising spot. Of course, it is a nice park with a cool view of Manhattan, and by day and night, many folks go there (and both men live in the area) so that's not unusual for them to meet there. But doesn't it make more sense that Davis was the one being blackmailed? Davis is the one who had something to lose (his job, his reputation) whereas Askew did not. And the unsigned documents in Askew's possession? Perhaps Askew's attempt at blackmailing wasn't working, Davis was trying to appease/delay him without giving in to him, and refused to sign the documents; this angered Askew to the point that he pulled out the gun and shot.

I realize I watch a lot of Law & Order, but anyone investigating this must have thought of this scenario.

Saturday, July 26, 2003

ok. got it to work

I am just staring at the html code for this pic, and can't for the life of me figure out why its not showing up. grrrrrrrr.

Friday, July 25, 2003


Justice Delayed is Justice Denied

It was 4 weeks ago today that the Supreme Court vacated the 17-year sentence imposed in 2000 on Matthew Limon. Today, Wichita Kansas radio station KMUW aired an interesting 6-minute report - Kansas Attorney General Phill Kline Speaks on Limon Case - where the Attorney General advocates that the Kansas Legislature amend its criminal code to be sexual-preference neutral. It's an interesting interview with him on how he believes Lawrence v. Texas will affect the Limon case, as well as gay marriage. Sadly, the piece ends on this note:

"... briefs in the case will probably be filed this fall, and it will likely be September or October before the Court will be able to act on the case of Matthew Limon." (emphasis added)

Meanwhile, Limon is still in jail, having served over 2 years of his 17-year sentence (remember, if it was "str8 sex", the sentence would've at most 15 months).

So..... I haven't paid much attention to the story regarding the NY City councilmember killing since it happened Wednesday afternoon, until this morning. It's getting weirder, and the papers sure are seeing it differently. One of the local papers, Gay City News has this headline today: "Closets Kill: Gay Life Brimming With Promise Derails Violently" - detailing that the killer was gay, the victim knew this fact, and had "advised" the soon-to-be-killer that it would be bad for his political career to let this out (pardon the pun). Meanwhile, the ever-sensational N Y Post prefers this headline: " HIV ASSASSIN WAS FUELED BY FEAR OF 'GAY' BLACKMAIL" - detailing the suspicions/rumors that the councilman may have been blackmailing his assailant to keep him from running against him - but, um, what-the-fuck with this headline??? Doesn't it imply that the guy's HIV status had something to do with the murder, or actually with the method of killing??? I hate the Post so much, the mutherfuckers. And of course, the newspaper of record, "Combustible Mix Behind City Hall Shooting".

Thursday, July 24, 2003

who the heck is Van Darkholme, and why is his used swimsuit so expensive?
just another French guy

how to stuff a wild bikini

Back to sex, etc. Did I mention that last Sunday someone seems to have chewed off the label on my favorite jockstrap? And, while working Monday night, I saw the guy who's butt my beard got well-aquainted with the previous evening sitting at a table chatting it up with another fuzzy, beefy guy. I didn't have the balls to go over and say hi, I just drooled from over in the corner. Speaking of men and sexplaces, I haven't heard from my 2-date man. Oh well. I know, I know, I could call him. But we left it at he'll call me if he's in town for the weekend, so I kinda think this means it's his turn. Stoopid, I know; if I want to see his handsome French face, I should call his dreaded cellphone and suggest something, and let the phone-tag begin. But I have that I want to see him but I have doubts about seeing him longterm and so why bother problem. ugh.

Last night, when I got home from work, the answering machine was blinking at me. Of course, I waited til I got all settled in and comfortable, hoping it would be from him, but alas, it was some indecipherable message about doing some sort of work; being disappointed, I let the machine erase it. Good manners would mean I should try to contact the person and at least say "no thanks" but the mood for good manners isn't in me today.

Wednesday, July 23, 2003

This is just awful.

The story is still unfolding, but the man who got Toys "R" Us to stop selling look-alike toy guns, and eventually convinced MTV to stop showing gun violence on their network, has been shot down, and killed at City Hall this afternoon.

Boo-hoo. I've had my pair of tickets to the upcoming Bjork concert (Fri., Aug 22nd) for 3 months now, and still haven't managed to find a date to accompany me! But seeing who has recently signed on to complete the line-up is certainly good news.

Tuesday, July 22, 2003

Have I mentionied the links in the upper right hand corner? [elsewhere] - use the arrow thingee to scrolldown and visit these folks (often). Meanwhile, crank the speakers.

TheRevolutionWillNotBeTelevised
WhiteMan'sGotAGodComplex

Monday, July 21, 2003

All I want is to breathe, Won't you breathe with me

Got the sex part of the evening out of the way before midnight (sexclub - nothing to write home about), giving me the opportunity to focus on music, smoking a bit of dope, more music, and of course junkfood (and more music).

I must've been looking through GoogleNews, and some article in the NYT grabbed my attention, which then pointed me to a Times article (How Fela Landed Me in Jail), but more importantly, that page points to special on Fela - FINDING FELA - Reflections On Africa's Music Legend (you have to scroll down the "Jail" page to find link) which is quite fantastic. And of course it pointed me to the New Museum's site, and it's current exhibit - Black President: The Art and Legacy of Fela Anikulapo-Kuti (the place is so friggin' close to me, I really ought to go this week); and this is what got me going for hours - their Fela Project Music Program page.

"This selection of music represents a timeline from the 1950s to the present, a context for the cultural and political environment in which Fela's Afrobeat was created and developed. It contains the synergistic music of the eras during which Fela composed and the musical realms in which his legacy has been disseminated. Starting with West African highlife music as his base, Fela synthesized the funky soul of James Brown and the compositional complexity of American and Afro-Cuban jazz with Yoruba percussion and call-and-response singing to form a new genre he called Afrobeat. Today his music and aura have been carried into new directions within contemporary Afrobeat, rock, hip-hop, soul, afro-house, and electronic dance music."

I will no doubt be spending weeks trying to assemble the music listed on this page. Some of it I've heard, only a few tunes/albums do I possess (but then I went to HALF.com and nabbed a few bargains late late last night), and just a couple I've had the pleasure of seeing live - (Talking Heads of course, but also Hugh Masekela and Gil Scott-Heron).

And I still have an exta copy of RED HOT + RIOT, which I was hoping to figure out some sort of clever give-away, but haven't been feeling very clever lately (let me put that on the "to do" list - not getting clever, but the give-away). And e-gads! it's nearly 3pm and I haven't left this apartment yet today - time for some errands, and a shower sometime before my 6pm worshift.