You'd think that this picture could entice a cocksucker like me, right? But I just know that the Phil Collins picture in the background would be more of a turn-off than if the guy used the p-word, ya know?

Trouble Sleep

There's a case to be made for Red Hot + Riot: A Tribute to the Music and Spirit of Fela Kuti being one of the year's best albums. I've listened to this album for a couple of months now, and am still immensely impressed with it's greatness; but somehow, I haven't been able to figure out a way to write about it adequately. So I won't worry about that - it's just a beautiful album. I was trying to think why this album grabs me in much the same way as my not-too-secret fave, Bjork, as well as another fave from 2002, the 2nd Sigur Ros album. It's how emotional it is, I suppose; and then I realized that it expresses something I rarely, if ever, hear in Bjork's music - anger. I've avoided posting any clips from it, as no one song could adequately represent the flavor of the album, but the final track - Taj Mahal’s magical and gentle take on ‘Trouble Sleep Yanga Wake Am’, featuring Baaba Maal and Kaouding Cissoko - so different from the rest of the album, is of such haunting beauty. It draws me in, makes me pull myself away from whatever I am doing, and I can just quietly listen, enjoy, and be enveloped by it's sadness. It's a long download, the tune itself is over 10 minutes long; I suggest saving it for when you can turn it up, and have the time to really appreciate it (of course, buying the disc is even better!) ---- Trouble Sleep Yanga Wake Am.

While I will admit to fairly tepid anti-war sentiment on my own part (old age, hopelessness, and yes, a questioning of my so-called youthful idealism that all war is wrong) - I have to say this really disturbs me ------ Judge Blocks Anti - War March Near U.N.. What the New York Times/ A P wire story doesn't mention is that the NYC Police Department has denied all protest marches south of 59th st, and the organizers of this march claim the city won't let them march anywhere. The organizers plan an immediate appeal, and are rightfully not content with the police's idea of one of those fenced in little areas far away from where anyone can see them. I can't go, as I work that day, but being a Saturday, I sure hope whatever does materialize gets a good turn-out.

OK, time to get back on the bike and into the snowy weather, and get some work done before the night job.

Please lord, why are you making it snow on a day I have to spend the afternoon riding my bike around town? I am barely awake, the coffee ain't working, and looking thru my referral logs ( which I only do 9 times a day, unless I'm not working, then it's more) I wonder if the guy searching for big+gay+balls liked my site, or P R Simon's better. OOOOOOO - lookey - another stinking blog! Sounds like a local, and it's his first post today - should be interesting to follow.

not that I know 72 Medium sized men..... but the mind does wander...

Well, thanks to all you kind folks who let me know that the link to NAUGHTYBIDS works. I'll slowly be adding more stuff there; but of course, it's an adult site, so you have to register, I think, to view - and certainly to bid on anything. Spent a good part of yesterday watching The Best of Ray Harley - (which was generously donated to me by a nice guy in Jersey) - of course I only watched it in 10-12 minute bits, cuz everytime someone's mouth went near that fuzzy Canadian's butthole ---- splll-att! Damn, he's one of those guys that makes you think, "yeah, I could fuck that."

And I'm still seeing the residuals (hits) of folks poking around my site looking for that BIGGERBETTERRAMSEYCLIP - as I asked one friend, what is is about gay men getting such a big kick out of seeing a big-dicked str8 man getting the fuck fucked out of him? Well, time for dinner, and time to go through my underwear drawer and see what I can, um, er, unload on NAUGHTYBIDS.

HELP ME: click this link, and email me and let me know if it takes you to a list of my NAUGHTYBIDS AUCTIONS.

.......just because I'm having a rotten day, am in a foul mood, and think the world is out to get me, doesn't mean I need to be stingy with that BIGGERBETTERRAMSEY clip. the pic-link below has been adjusted, and let's just hope the message board folks don't go posting it again. Clip comes down by midnite tonight.

NOTE: sorry, had to take clip down completely, just too many downloads. Time to go back to the less popular GAY actors in gay porn, eh?

While it's a beautiful snowy day out there, it'll be a struggle to enjoy it. Another stupid message board posted a direct link to the movie clip below (80 hits in one hour, what'll that cost me??), so I had to take it down (regular readers can email me and I can give you the new link for the remainder of the day). But, during a restless night last night (this morning), I was checking email, and got a notice from eBay that they have suspended my account. No selling, no buying, no feedback, no nothing. No new violation cited, merely the 2 previous recent auctions that they had problems with were cited as the reason. Needless to say, I am bummed. While I don't feel like going into their reasons, and trying to explain their mentality - it's the same old thing; i feel bad, and i feel bad about feeling bad about something stupid -- but i work damn hard at doing my auctions well: fast shipping, detailed information on what you're bidding on, etc., etc., etc., ---- so it sucks bigtime.

The BIGGER The BETTER

"C'mere; I want you to come over here; I want you to have a seat"

director: Matt Sterling (1984)

Starring: Rick Donovan, Matt Ramsey (aka Peter North), Brian Michaels (aka Bobby Madison), Mike Ramsey, Buster, Shawn McIvan (aka Brian Hawks), Joe Craig, Greg Stopes, Doug Weston, John Thomas

In NIGHTCHARM's Best Gay Porn Ever, this topped their TOP TEN list, coming in at #1 (although my own personal list would be much different than theirs - like it would include something from before 1983!) Matt Ramsey narrates this one, and performs in 2 full scenes (and if I remember correctly, 4 generous ejaculations), unlike many other appearances he made in gay porn videos before he fled to the exclusively hetero market, using the name Peter North.

Be warned, Mr. Donovan and Miss Ramsey are mid-fuck as the clip begins, Ramsey is a tad vocal about what's bumping into him (crank the volume and let your co-workers enjoy!), and there are a few of those video-pauses (and the rather scarey "dick-eye view" of Ramsey's butthole coming down at you!); but you should get a good enuf glimpse, plus a tease of a true porn great, Brian Michaels - such a hottie! (and yes, I will be posting the video on eBay tomorrow, Friday, in it's full-color box)

Eat My Bandwidth

oooh, I forget that tomorrow is the end of my billing cycle for DREAMHOST, so I ought to get this The Bigger The Better clip I promised a few days back ready before I head off to work, eh?

Mark this on your calendar, one week from tonight - go here for more info.

PI NOTICE: eBay Auctions Ended by Customer Support

"Dear BJLAND (bjland7820@aol.com),
We regret to inform you that your eBay auctions:

2909376971 HAIRY JOCK WORN Neiman Marcus TANK TOP
2909377382 Reflections of Youth TOBY ROSS Big Bill Eld
2909391514 CAMP PALM SPRINGS Hot Desert Knights BAREBACK
2909391653 DONUT C-RING lite, rubber, STAY AROUSED!
2909414217 HONCHO Dec 02 CHRIS STEELE
2909418879 HONCHO Sept 01 STEVE CASSIDY
2909419353 HONCHO Feb 02 hairy Jon Galt
2909433795 HONCHO Feb 03 Diego Alvarez
2909496666 BG EAST Super Hero Heels 2 THE BLACK SPIDER
2909503829 Hairy Jock Worn USED AQUA SPEEDO 32
2909515801 BG EAST Tag Team Torture 1
2909647681 ALL MAN Fallen Angel 2 SPECIAL ISSUE
2909648804 ALL MAN Fallen Angel 3: Initiation SPECIAL
2909656786 ALL MAN Cole Youngblood MARK WOLFF
2909757850 ALL MAN Jeff Palmer BILLY HERRINGTON
2909758219 ALL MAN Will Clark LEX BALDWIN
2909760181 ALL MAN Italian vs. Russian models!
2909887150 ALL MAN Scott Matthews CHRIS STEELE
2909904480 BG EAST Wrestling Hard Pros 7
2909934949 CLONE: The Life and Legacy of AL PARKER
2909936049 Bearing Leather COLTON FORD, Eric Evans BEARS
2910117743 BG EAST Squared Circle 1: Ring Erotica
2910130337 ALL MAN Maxx Grand MICHAEL BRANDON
2910131335 ALL MAN Dean Phonex, MATT DRAKE
2910141105 Jack Fritsher's STAND BY YOUR MAN
2910141367 HAIRY GUY'S rubber penis / c-ring
2910176937 INCHES APRIL 2000 Arpad Miklos BIG MEN!
2910177747 INCHES JULY 2000 Mark Kroner

have been ended. All fees associated with these auctions have been credited to your account.

Your auction Jack Fritsher's STAND BY YOUR MAN Item # 2910141105 was in violation of our policies. The following was included in your auction:

Image of hand to genital contact,

which is not allowed on eBay. As there are several violations of this policy on your account, we have ended all of your auctions.

Needless to say, I'm a tad upset. Yes, more than anyone, even more than most of the people working at eBay, I should've noticed that Frank Vickers's hands weren't merely in his pants, but were, in fact, touching his naughtybits. But that image is what caused ALL of my auctions to be cancelled this morning, as punishment for this most recent violation (their email goes on to explain that since it's one of several lately, that is why they took this action). As some of you know, I love selling porn; and I like giving as much info as possible when selling items (who buys a dirty magazine without seeing the cover, or knowing which models are inside?) - and balancing giving potential buyers info, with eBay's prudishness about what is acceptable for adults who must, each time they go into the "Mature Audiences" section, promise they really really want to see the stuff, and really really won't be offended by it, and still can't see anything close to actual sexual activity - well, apparently I err too often on the side of giving customers info. I'm exhausted just from thinking about the loss of income, all the hard work of scanning, coding, checking for "too naughty" words or images, and then re-doing it, trying to go into "prude mode" so as to not get fucked over again.....

but, if you feel sorry for me, please please don't tell me to go to NAUGHTYBIDS - I sell stuff there too, and unless it's purely filthy stuff like my underwear or a "modeled" cockring, it invariable sells for so little, it's not worth the effort. I need to get out of the house for a bit.

Eyebrows, Man

How long had it been? Two, 3 weeks? So I'm riding the few short blocks to work Sunday morning, and decide I need to nonchalantly ask the manager what's up with Eyebrow Man (but not to use those exact words, of course). As I approach the corner, there's the white truck. I hear sounds, someone-loading-a-truck sounds, and quicken my pace (quicken my pedaling?), park, lock the bike, and walk over toward the back entrance (ahem) and glance toward the truck parked across the street. Walking from it is a tall man, different ethnicity, different headdress than Eyebrow Man. He gets to the door ahead of me, I say hello as I walk in, he says nothing. Hmmpf. Who is this guy? Tall with a big green scarf wrapped up over his head, no beard, no hairy forearms, NO EYEBROWS!!

Maybe two hours later, there's a pause in the workflow for the manager (he bartends and wait tables as well), and having decided I need to ask in the most matter of fact, "oh just curious but no I don't have a huge crush and my head hasn't been aching for 3 weeks wondering kinda way" - since I've noticed my coworkers just love to gossip. "Hey, you know what's going on with the truck driver, haven't noticed him around lately?" "Oh! Last we heard he was in a jail in Virginia."

After struggling to help me pick my jaw from up off the ground, he continues: "Yeah, we got an odd call, he had been arrested, and was very strange on the phone, said he wouldn't be coming back to work. I think he was going to be fired anyway, the boss wasn't too happy with him; I know he seems nice and all on the surface, but he's an odd one. Didn't really seem to know the basics about driving, and parking, and when the boss took a ride with him uptown, was shocked that the guy didn't even know how to signal...." . Um, woah. He's like just gone? And this flood of "information" is too much, but he continued - "Oh yeah, the boss said one day (Eyebrow Man) is just hanging around and says 'Wanna hear a poem I wrote? - here it goes:

Roses are red
Violets are black
There's no sound I like better
Than the sound of a knife in my sister's back' "

Then the manager gets busy again, and that's where the conversation ended. Eyebrow Man's gone, jailed in Virginia, rumours about not particularly liking his sister, sheesh! He used to talk about wanting to check out biker bars, but um, well, for all I know this is all bullshit and it was his weird way of quitting. Still, it's sort of a disappointing ending to this particular fantasy, especially since I had just cleared out my sock drawer so he'd have room for his not-too-distant regular 2-day stayovers with me.

Confessions Of A Male Groupie
(or How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love The Electric Banana)

"You can't always get what you want"

Tom DeSimone (1971)

The director's description at the time: - "A hard-core pop musical camp expose' of a young country boy led adrift by Sweet Lady Mary in Hollywood" awarded the Mama Cass award in the "Wet Dream Film Festival" in Amsterdam in 1971. Stars Larry Danser as The Groupie; D C Micheals as Steve; Ruffin Tumble as Jeff; Sky Kinque as Frank (the last 3 make up the group Electric Banana); introducing Myona Phetish as Sweet Lady Mary; and The Beautiful People as The Beautiful People.

The plot involves a young man fleeing his home town, Gottagetouttahere, USA, and arriving in L.A. to be taken into the fold by Sweet Lady Mary. The pair are big fans of the new hit group, Electric Banana, a long-haired skinny three-some - 2 are lovers, and the 3rd is finally seduced by The Groupie by the film's end. Excellent opening sequence utilizing George Harrison's "My Sweet Lord", a split-screen with our hero, The Groupie, dancing, and some erotic "still" poses with other nude models, which then segues into a stark, but beautiful solo masturbation scene by Larry. At the time, director DeSimone was contracted to provide gay porno films to two adult theatres, but having also promised his friends to make something other than your typical fuck-film (everyone in this film were personal friends of his, the "freaks" he ran around with), he wasn't too happy having to let this one only be seen in what was then illegal gay porno theatres. But at that time, only the "artist" Andy Warhol could get this sort of film shown outside of those venues. I love this clip - the "faghag" Sweet Lady Mary shoots up, a Rolling Stones song playing, and her erotic dream involving just herself.

I had no idea what had happened, but a co-worker pointed to the tv set playing in the restaurant Saturday morning. I watched for only a few moments, felt quite sad, but quickly returned to my station and busied myself, and instinctively tuned out the sounds from the blaring tv. Most of Saturday night I was here at the computer, with music playing. Later I turned the tv on just to surf for a minute, and the last few minutes of Woody Allen's Radio Days was playing. It was the part where a little girl has fallen in a well, or cave, or something, and there's this huge effort at rescuing her, and the whole country seems to be following the story on the radio. The announcer says that they have the body, it's coming up, and then, his voice lowered, he says "oh my god, this is awful, she's not alive" etc. One or two more lines, then, "we are ending this broadcast now, ladies and gentlemen, our prayers are with the little girl's family" and we see quick glimpses of eveyone who'd been listening to the broadcast; each one still, hugging a loved one, quiet. The radio is turned off.

And I remembered the tragedy of earlier in the day, and my instinct to walk away from the non-stop coverage, knowing how quickly I could get desensitized if I witnessed microphone's getting shoved into family member's faces, "analyists" arguing over NASA budgets, man-on-the-street interviews of witnesses. I'm sure there are important questions to be asked and answered, and I also know people grieve in different ways; I learned what I needed to know very quickly, and perhaps in a few weeks or months, some details about why or how could be interesting to me, but for know I know I want to leave my initial emotional response intact - sadness for the friends and families, admiration for people who take risks for knowledge.

upcumming clips:

I wanna post that "girlie" clip from Confessionsof a Male Groupie sometime tomorrow; then I'll probably do a one-day only clip fom the 1984 classic The Bigger The Better - seems that the st8 guy's performing in gay videos clips get lots of hits, so I need to be careful with this clip of MATT RAMSEY (aka Peter North) taking it up the butt from Rick Donovan. You know, teacher catches student reading a porn mag in detention, and somehow the student (Mr. Donovan) manages to get the teacher to bend over the desk; then the very scarey "have a seat, teach" segment as you see Ramsey's butthole coming right at you as he's about to sit down on Donovan's thang. I can be a bit cynical about these guys, but after previewing the whole tape last night (up for auction soon), it really is an excellent video. One of the last to be shot on film, I have to give Matt Ramsey some credit for decent acting abilities, and no one can ignore his schlong, nor his ability to shoot some hefty loads. No wonder he's done so well in porn for 20 years! Although I have to admit to being partial to the Brian Michaels scene (oddly, his name is missing from the box, and most porno sites selling the dang video) - he's the "kid" who asks to come by Teach Ramsey's home to get some lessons on body-building, and takes all of 40 seconds to get his face in Ramsey's butt. But, Michaels dirty talk is just great, much like his scene in A Matter Of Size where he eggs on two of his buddies for a hot 3-way. But I digress........The sound of Ramsey tearing the kid's grey sweatpants so he can fuck him is extremely arousing!

busy busy day today.

woody alert

JOCK WORN HANES SELECT BRIEFS

who wants to be on Coach Jones's team?

How do you say "keep unbottoning" in Australian?

woody alert

Fairly quiet night, as usual for me on a Saturday. I try to remember to watch PBS's Nature at 6pm, it's the repeat from the previous Sunday night's show. But, alas, it was about puppies - not that I don't like dogs and all, but TV shows about pets are invariably about people, and well, I don't watch nature shows to hear people yapping away about their "children" Spot and Puss-N-Boots, ya know? Not too much into lions and the like, either, as they're always killing things; but give me some new-age music and weird underwater scenery, and a few minutes of faces of creatures I've never seen, and well... Two weeks ago it was excellent, "Under Antarctic Ice" , the kind of show that makes me wish I was a scientist, or a nature photographer, or both, or married to one.....

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