angels

So, my half naked body is only fetching 99 cents. And I haven't had "real sex" ("real" meaning one or both guys actually ejaculate) in probably a month. I should be depressed, but I'm not. What's with that?

The last two times I had a man in my bed, I was very very drunk. And I am useless when I am drunk (unless you like a warm, fuzzy body against you, faux thrusting his crotch into your backside). But, alas, both men were sweet, and there was just something so nice about being comfortable enough not to worry about performance, and just enjoy acting a little silly in bed, snuggling and kissing, and soon enough, snoring. And I've also met a few new guys, and while it's mostly out-in-the-bars stuff, there seems to be genuine affection and friendships developing, and I can't tell you how nice that is. Sex is easy; friendship isn't. While I will no doubt get bummed out real soon about the no-boyfriend-on-the-horizon thing; lately, when it starts to creep up on me, I manage to think about someone who made me laugh so hard I cried, or someone who I somehow managed to bring out a sweet, warm smile. And I forget to get bummed out.

Still thinking about the film I saw last night, The Nomi Song. Of course, I am still hung over, perhaps even tipsy, from the many many beers we had hanging out afterwards. Near the end was an amazing live version of The Cold Song, with full orchestra, and one of the few times you really felt, in the singing and especially in his face, a very emotional performance. This studio version of The Cold Song will have to do for now.

please don't make me get out of bed

shaved balls = chapped lips

Been spending a lot of time (a lot of time) looking at fuzzy, furry, furry, fuzzy men on line lately. While I've been spending time on various sites, I have to say Bears Gone Wild! is the coolest NAME for a bear site. And the logo, over to the right there, is simple and just right. Of course, they have stuff I'd love to buy, like these Organic Cotton Mud Flap Bear Shirts, but they also are selling stuff that is just plain wrong.

And redheads. Bearded, furry, fuzzy redheads have surprisingly really grabbed my attention. Gosh, when I was younger, it was just the darker, swarthy types; but lately, I'm finding my tastes expanding. It really comes down to the face, of course. My romantic side spots a handsome fuzzy face and I'm automatically seeing how handsome he will still look in 20 or 30 years. MMMMMmmmm. But, alas, occasionally you'll see some hot guy, covered, I mean completely covered, in beautiful, soft, thick, aromatic fur, and you get to the crotch shot, and BAM! some BIC razor has found it's way down there. So sad, those poorly trimmed crotches, little mustaches above a formerly beautiful bear-crotch. What are these guys thinking?

He's baaaaaaack!

ooh, he has a PAYPAL donation link on his page! Someone needs to alert PAYPAL - remember PAYPAL's prohibition on ADULT stuff?? Gannon still hasn't said whether he's stopped whoring, so this may just be a way for his tricks to pay him!

ahhhh, to have a working video camera again

well, to be younger, have a working video camera again, be able to get someone down to the lower east side, convince him to perform in front of a camera, not get performance anxiety myself, not screw up the lighting......

good reading......

"The Bush administration is known for its secrecy and its insularity. It sees conspiracy around every corner and views the world — in fact, the entire non-Republican part of the nation — as subversive and calculating. It sees itself as constantly under attack from a "liberal" media. This is a classic closet-case mentality." - from Andy

...more good reading...

"The death of (Hunter S.) Thompson represents the passing from the Age of Gonzo to the Age of Gannon."

........I know it's in there somewhere...

.....now, if i could only get someone else to reach in there....

more Gannon/Guckert

From Editor & Publisher: "There are people who are definitely interested in some of my behind-the-scenes work in the press room." That is certainly an understatement.

and from Keith Olbermann: So, the artist formerly known as Jeff Gannon is considering suing everybody.

and this is..... well, more. Conservative Christian Groups are reportedly 'shocked and saddened' by the treatment fellow Gay Conservative Republican Jeff Gannon is receiving from the Liberal Press.

swim suit edition

I was recently assigned the task of getting a smiling pic. Normally I don't care much for assignments, but, um, it was a sweet request - "you should have a smiling photo up - you are even more handsome when you're smiling" (not sure if that goes for when I'm blushing, but you can't see that). With this slight hangover (which makes me think I'm just not yet sober) maybe I can squeeze a smiling pic out of a hot photo session. Sigh. I'd rather take pics of boys butts in my bed (say that 3 times real fast) but arty self pics will have to do.

Meanwhile, feeling a bit nostalgic after trying to pull some good pics out of this big bunch of MEN MAGAZINES a buddy sent (not sure if linkage is appropriate, he might not want anyone to know he's a homosexual!) But seeing Blake Harper and Jason Branch in separate photospreads was kinda sad. I remember when those boys had a site together, and I wrote to each of them. Jason wrote back a sweet note; Blake never responded (as Barbara Bush would say, "it rhymes with witch"). Then the boys broke up, Blake did that bi movie (ewwwwwwwww!), so now I just lust after the better half of that former couple. Gee I am going on and on. And this little thing - how the hell am I the only website with this phrase - Gays Yes, Contras No - I'm dating myself, I guess (well, at least someone is!) Wish me luck with the camera.

update: Ah, my magazine donor assures me his boyfriend already knows he's a homosexual, so no prob linking my thanks.

dunno why i've been in such a good mood the past few nights. that boy-in-the-bed Tuesday night? Or maybe it's this great line-up in my CD player that I've played the last few nights alone?

• Trinity Sessions
• Angels Of The Universe
• ( )
• Vespertine
• Hanky Panky

misc stuff

Watching some TV; saw an amazing NATURE show on orangutans, and am looking forward to seeing the Law & Order rerun in a few minutes. After that, it's a few simple tasks. Finally putting away this huge pile of boxer shorts that have been taking up space in this small room, searching my hard drive for the Simpsons's GAY STEEL MILL clip, and then spending the rest of the night looking for that Xmas card from an old friend/former roommate. He's moved, his email has changed, and I haven't yet responded, I'm such a bad person! In between all that, I may just continue last night's activity - more husband shopping! (OK, just browsing; but pic-looking and the occasionally friendly hello is actually quite nice for now)

SECRET SEX

"Anyone can suck cock, but I've never seen you take it up the ass."

Director: Taylor Hudson aka Chi Chi LaRue (1994)

Starring: Rob Cryston, Derek Cruise, Jimmy Dante, Grant Larsen, Steve Maverick, Aiden Shaw, Zak Spears, Mark West, Kurt Wolfe, John Wood, and in non sexual roles Sharon Kane, Busty Belle

"Picture this for a scary future: The conservative government has ruled out sex and recruited an elite corps of macho enforcers to catch violators. A resistance movement, the Sex Radicals, has sprung up to defy the edict and rekindle the libido lurking inside even the enforcers."

Of course, my boyfriend, Aiden Shaw, is part of the resistance. This is a great example of one of Aiden's trade-marks: getting his cocked sucked with his Levis on - just watch that thing bounce around as his co-star slurps on it! Of course, Mark West gets to wear the near-future futuristic outfit: a jock strap over his tight, rubber shorts. Aiden lapping away at Mark's rubber-covered ass is great!

Blog Cabin Republican

The DAILY SHOW last night was fuckin' histerical!!! Gannon/Guckert, blogs, etc. I hesitate to link to the guy posting the clip, as I empathize with bandwidth issues, but look for it, it's great! (oh, what the heck - onegoodmove.org, he has other good content worth checking out, too)

some reading for you, too - Who Would Fuck Gannon?

Jeff Gannon on eBay

you show me yours, I'll show you mine

I realize I should be talking about the boy who left here an hour or two ago, pulling on his clothes and fleeing as I am waking up, but, um, well, OK, maybe I will, just briefly. He used the old "damn! the L train isn't running, and it's 4 am, what am I to do" trick to get me to offer 1/2 of my bed. Halfway home, we decided it would be faster if I rode him (on the bike, that is) and he seemed to enjoy that. Sitting on a handsome boy's lap as I am pumping the pedals was good for me, too. We were supposed to "just sleep" and if you know me, and know how I am after 5(ish) beers, it really is all I am capable of. But, somehow the topic of cockrings came up, and I pulled out a box of 'em, and he was trying them on and next thing I know he's showing off this real pretty cock; i mean real fuckin' pretty. Next thing I know, it's morning, there's a naked guy lying next to me in bed, and I go to make coffee. I fall asleep, and an hour later, there's a man (same man, I think) dressing beside my bed. Now, I gotta tell ya, we met because of this website - I mean, we were both out at the same bar a week or two ago, and he recognized my pic, and said hi, and he's really cute and sweet and all that, and then I saw him out last night. Anyway, as he's dressing, I'm offering coffee, orange juice, etc, he laughs but says no thanks, and then I realize - shit, he reads this thing, and he knows i just LOVE taking pics of men in my bed, so i laugh to myself, and stop offering stuff, and let him flee.

He'll be back. No no, that's not like "he'll come back for more" but more that he's got some stuff (made-for-TV-movies, music, etc.) I want to see, and I know he was interested in some of the porno I have, so, ya know, he'll be back. And I might even go to Brooklyn if I'm invited, who knows?

Meanwhile, for those of you who like jockstraps and stuff, this hard to find vintage mesh TRU-FIT jockstrap is already fetching a good price, with 24 hours left to the auction, but check out the pics - and his other auctions like the Boner in Bike Shorts (songs like a Police tune)

"Andy Warhol had a soup can," he said. "Why can't I have a cardboard tube?"

Don't ya hate when it's a 56 degree day in friggin' FEBRUARY, but ya got stuff to do, so you don't get outside, and then it's 4pm, and you haven't gotten anything done anyway? So, a quick run to the post office, and then it's time to get ready for work. Grrrrr. Well, at least it's Tuesday, and cheap 2dollarbeers after work.

HotRepublicanDaddy.com

OK - could the Jeff Gannon/James Guckert story get any better? Check out the latest at americablog (link via towleroad - thanks!) or just go str8 to the pics ("WON'T ASK, WON'T TELL" indeed!) and download them to your DADDYfile folder. So, how is this story going to get better? Former congressman Ed Schrock doing Gannon? Ken Mehlman naked pics? ok, that would be horrible, I admit...

Hey, does anyone remember Gannon mentioning his love of basketball in his interview with interview with Wolf Blitzer?