bj's gay porno-crazed ramblings

Saturday, January 24, 2004
Have I mentioned that I haven't had sex in 3 weeks? Thursday night, January 1st was the last time, and I haven't a clue who it was with. Yes, sexclub action. I think if I strained my brain, I might be able to recall the details, but I'm not gonna try. Normally, I'd be complaining, but I haven't really been in the mood for that scene, or any sex thing since then. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I don't want sex; but I don't want to put any effort into it for the time being. Believe me, if BurritoMan ever materialized again (it's been 18 days since I've seen him at the restaurant, not that I'm counting...) or TacoMan (another cutie, who may or may not be gay, and who has indicated NO INTEREST in me, but ever since that time he came into the takeout side to pick up his order, and had obviously been running, or doing something physical and was sweating - when he reached up, and the fragrance from under his arm floated into my face, I got so stoned from his aroma - I was in heaven!) - if one of these fellows, or someone new made some effort in my direction, sure, I'd be up for it (so to speak).

And it's been over 3 weeks since I've had alcohol, smoked dope, worn a jockstrap, poked my screen name into a chatroom, gone to the CRUISTOOL site, been to a bar, or anything else remotely socio-sexual. Even whacking off took a downturn (but no, it hasn't left my diet entirely; it would be a shame to waste these full, heavy balls and thick manmeat, don't you think?) since the first of the year. I guess I'm just hibernating.