Thursday, October 11, 2001

did someone say 3-way?
leaving the Cock around 3ish, both of the gentleman I was with said "Oh God, that smell" as we looked to the sky, seeing a clear, crisp night, beautiful half moon, with the reminder in our noses that there are still people working downtown.....

oh yeah, the sex. well, it took longer than I would've wanted it to, you know me, I'm thinking about ice cream and the baked pasta I had made earlier. Both men were handsome, one I had dated for, um, well, 2 dates, I think, around 2 years ago. But our host seemed a bit unfocused, turning the tv on at one point while i had both cocks in my face; or leaving the room for five or ten minutes, coming back with a vial of poppers. I'm such a wuss, I should've just whacked off and said "thanks fellas" but i'm too polite, I said I was into a 3-way, so how can I now say, "What's in the fridge? You got any salsa and chips?" Somebody mentioned fucking, and somebody else said "naw, not now" I don't think either was me, I was somewhere else - from images of scarey stuff still floating in and out of my mind, to the thoughts of food that always pre-occupy me after 4 a.m., getting up way way too early to meet a friend on Friday, and meeting a stranger (I think he's a fireman) at the dogrun on Saturday (more on that if it works out), and back to wondering if anyone in this room would actually CUM in this lifetime!!